Motivation

So, after excuse after excuse, I am forcing myself to get a hold of everything and take control. Starting on Monday I have started tracking my calories again. Before, I would track all day, while I was good, and then I would "forget" to track what I ate at night. Umm, I wonder why I wasn't losing the weight I wanted to. Well now, I have my The Daily Plate (which I highly recommend for anyone wanting to track calories) my home page. Now, every day when I get onto my internet, it is the first page I see. That way it reminds me to make sure everything in there is current and I can't cheat myself anymore.

Also, seeing Nolen's progress has been a real downer for me lately. He has been doing so good, and while the scale is not showing the progress as much as he would like, how strong he is getting and the muscle he now has is amazing. It just makes me mad to know that we both started this together earlier this year, and while I have not held up my part of it, he has and can see the results.

I have also tried to think of why I feel this need to lose weight and get in shape. I know it has to be more than just wanting to look good, because if that is all it is then I will just continue to fail myself. So, I sat down and came up with some other reasons, hoping these will be more of a motivating factor. (1) Knowing we live in a country where obesity is running wild, I know I need to get a hold of my eating habits and learn to make better decisions. I am afraid that too many wrong decisions can lead me in that direction. (2) While this is still a good few years down the line, I want to ensure that when the time comes for Nolen and I to start our family, I am as healthy as I can be, for both myself and our future baby. (3) Along those same lines, I want to go though the hard time of making the life style changes now while it is just me and Nolen before our life gets more complicated and busy.

So, lets see how it goes. I hoping this is going to give myself a big kick in the arse and help me get it back in gear. I'll keep you all updated more often on my progress. Until then, healthy choices and good workouts!